On Wednesday Jan. 8th just after 9 a.m. Roxy died in my arms naturally, peacefully and quickly with no signs of suffering. She went into a peaceful trance and had a couple minutes of breaths with long apneic periods. After she took her final breath, her sweet heart stopped soon after. In those minutes, I felt so much peace and saw the beauty in death as we shared this moment alone which was so fitting for our long journey together. It has been such an honor to care for her—to be her mom, and also her nurse.
Caring for Roxy is what I love about my profession because at some point medicine can no longer fix, but nursing care can help until the last breath. I was able to be with her and care for her up until her last breath, last heart beat and while her spirit left her body. How beautiful and amazing for her to trust me and be vulnerable enough to let go in my arms.
Roxy was my teacher; guiding me through the death she wanted. This was my first natural death and it was perfectly fitting for Roxy’s personality and spirit. It took tremendous courage at times for me to stand my ground with the veterinarian community and advocate for what I knew my best friend wanted. Together, her and I worked through the dying process, completing the circle of life. Allowing her to pass on her terms and at a time of her choosing.
This 4 ½ year journey started with my Sofie girl Summer of 2015. It has been a life changing experience. I look forward to honoring them both by helping others through this process and with hospice care. Also teaching others how to care for themselves and their furry family members in the most natural and healthy ways, so when it’s time we can have a good death and pass on in peace.
Ethan and I are moving through the grieving process. Missing Roxy badly but at peace because of all the amazing memories that are flooding in. Roxy lived a life that most dogs dream of—a life most humans dream of! I will continue to honor Roxy’s life by posting pics of the amazing life she had, filled with tons of love an adventure.
I want to thank you all for your support. All of my friends, co-workers and managers have been unbelievable understanding. You know me well because you understood I had to take this unconventional approach so I could have peace and closure, and you supported me the entire time. Thank you for knowing me, and my heart.
Thank you to my love Ethan who worked through his own fears, especially in these last few weeks to be the best dad to Roxy. Staying by her side and helping mom provide her with the best nursing care. I’m so proud of you and your growth.
And thank you Roxy for being my angel, my little messenger and an amazing teacher of life. Today, I’m comforted and at ease knowing your spirit is as free as it was that day in the poppy fields. Be free and rest in peace my sweet girl. Know you will always be loved and your memories will always be alive. With love, forever your mommy.
“Peace to Roxy. Sending love.” – Cynthia